The biggest New Years Resolution was always... to lose weight.
I always said it, my friends always say it. Maybe not always at New Years but at some point. It's the pressure!
In the past I was ...Relatively healthy. I say relatively because well... I worked out (hated it) and ate moderately healthy. When I wanted to.
Then... I gained, A LOT.
At my biggest. I was still beautiful, I just had goals to be more healthy. I didn't have time to work out, I didn't have energy, was not sleeping well (up all night long) and often relied on junk food and caffeine to get me through the day. I didn't feel like I was wake until I ate.
I have always worked hard preparing super healthy meals for the Smart Pants fam. I like knowing I am serving a great meal! That doesn't mean you can't gain weight on it, especially with my horrible snacks and drinks. Healthy doesn't mean calorie free. Stupid food.
I wasn't my normal size or weight. I wasn't happy. That's the main point, I wasn't happy so I changed! I wanted something to change and I did it.
Does that mean I'm condemning any weight or size? Hell no. I am saying I wasn't happy living at the size I was and I wasn't at my healthiest. If you are happy at any size, be happy. If you aren't happy, change something.
I started on this app called MyFitnessPal and let me tell you what! It is the one of the BEST apps for tracking! I could track my calories, scan my food and create quick calorie counts. I tracked my workouts and knew when I was slipping! I was a weight loss machine!
At the end of the day, unless you have a health condition, weight loss comes down to calories in, calories out. It's not magic and no, I'm not one of the 'lucky' ones with a high metabolism, I wasn't always the size I am and I could just as easily not be this size again. You also can not out-work a bad diet. I had to bust ass and I hated every minute of it. I really wanted a huge cake and Frosted Flakes, all to myself. Would have probably traded my right hand at some point for those damn flakes.
The only problem is... I lost it so quickly. Luckily my skin mostly went back to where it is suppose to be, which I credit to good genes and also I didn't pass out at any time, which was damn lucky. I was eating far too few calories and I knew it. That's not healthy and can lead to or feed a preexisting issue . I was in a size 3 from a size 18 in 6 months. THAT IS NOT HEALTHY AND I AM NOT PROUD OF THAT. It is a lesson, though, one I can share with you now and the only reason I even say it. I was so tired all the time. I was not my idea of healthy. I looked sick, people would ask if I was tired or feeling bad. As I got smaller and smaller, I still didn't look the way I wanted to. If I took a week off my 'diet' I would gain weight so quickly. It just wasn't a livable way to, well, live.
I ditched the unhealthy shit and got back up to a size 5. Not too shabby, my weight was in the healthy, fit range. BUT I also stopped working out! Again, not healthy, not really. Being thin doesn't mean a thing if you aren't healthy! None of this does! As soon as I started working out I felt that urge to limit my calories, and not in a healthy way. It has been and always will be a constant battle for me.
Basically, I had to learn how to be healthy and not give into my bad mental issues. I have to avoid triggers that make me say 'Ya, I need to lose weight/workout more than needed/go out of my way to be ____*insert size'.
I started looking into weightlifting and training at home. We don't have the best set up but it works. After that first 2 weeks, it became second nature! I wasn't sore after work outs anymore and actually looked forward to them! I didn't start gaining weight until about week 4. I am now up at 135-140 pounds, the same weight I was at when I was in my size 5-7 but I am in 3-5!! Funny, but it really is true that muscle weights more than fat. I have also started extreme yoga and flexibility training which has helped my messed up back!
Not only am I stronger but the BEST PART... I eat better and have a good handle on that. If I junk, that's all I get. Too bad, so sad.
Sorry folks, working out is NOT a get out of healthy-eating card. Eating healthy is a huge part of maintaining that healthy calorie range. Go over, gain. Go under, lose. Yes, you CAN lose weight eating only junk and soda. That's true, by staying under that calorie goal, which would be SUPER hard. A salad and water has far less calories than a giant burger, fries and soda. So, you either eat less quantity of food or run all day to burn off that one meal.
6 oreos: 270 calories
2 cups of grapes: 124 calories
It is pretty obvious which would fill you and which wouldn't.
I wasn't interested in eating less or running off every every calorie. I don't even include my workouts as 'calorie burning'. Why? Well because I love eating and I won't devote my day to running, mainly because I freaking hate it with a passion. Also, calorie counting apps can be wrong. I don't care if MyFitnessPal says I burnt 500 calories, maybe I did, maybe I didn't. I'm not going to run home and eat my hard work away. Forget that.
Healthy weight loss takes time and being honest with yourself, changing your lifestyle, staying on a healthy diet (diet as in regards to what you eat, not fad-diet or crash-diet, those don't work for long) and working out to see small to no results for quite a while. It can be discouraging but if this is a real goal for you, don't give up on yourself.
I have to say that is one thing that I took from my extreme diet experience is how to basically know how much I eat without having to really think about it. I really think for most people an HONEST food diary or MyFitnessPal is an invaluable tool. It helped me to eat healthy and limit bad stuff for me. Now, it helps me to stay at the calorie goal I need to be at. I use home grown stevia in my tea, I don't eat dairy because of a whey allergy and being ya know... VEGAN. I rarely have coffee anymore. Mainly because my body just screams NO. Caffeine is so bad for your body, it is a drug and is addicting. If you love soda, get ready to be sad because it does not help your weight loss. Below is my recipe for dandelion root coffee, tastes just like the real deal and can help you ween off! Kombucha is an amazing probiotic, fizzy soda replacement! Water kefir is also fizzy and caffeine FREE. Check my blog on that too!
Now, I'm still good. Ya my weight fluctuates but I'm also HUMAN. The one thing I want people to take from this is that the road to being healthy is key! Everyone should strive to make health the goal. Emphasis on HEALTHY not just skinny or thin. We are all different and at some point you must love the skin you are in. Even if it's a work in progress body, it's yours and it's amazing.
I have been skinny, I have been bigger. I can say I am much more proud of what my body can do HEALTHY, not to mention I think it just looks better! Be honest with yourself when you take a look a what you fuel your body with on the daily, that's half the battle!
I also need to be sure you all know this... ONLY do weight lifting with TRAINED HELP. You must have to have someone you KNOW can lift your weight off of you should something happen and can tell you when you are in danger due to improper form. I had a very bad injury from a shady partner about 15 years ago, so take my advice and DONT TRUST ANYONE but a professional or someone trained! Idc how buff your partner is, if they aren't trained or paying attention, they shouldn't spot. Also, NEVER start any new, radical diet or workout if you have issues UNTIL TO TALK TO YOUR PERSONAL DOCTOR. Not a trainer, not the guy in the gym, your doctor. I'm not your doctor and this is not your story. This is my lesson I can share with you. Talk to them and get a good check up to make sure you are ready. If you get hurt because you pushed too hard, you'll be right back to step one and weeks of time lost due to an injury. That's if the injury isn't a bad one.
Be Happy and Healthy!
The Smart Girl in Pants
Warning signs to look for if you are worried you may have an eating disorder and how to recover.
(None of my blogs are intended to cure, treat, prevent or diagnose. Everyone should seek their doctors Opinion before beginning a new workout or diet. Crash and extreme diets to lose weight are not healthy. Neither is low carb, gluten free or high protein unless specified by a doctor for your specific health needs, Not as a diet.)
Dandelion Root Coffee:
Ask your doctor PRIOR to using ingesting any new herbs. Any. They may interfere with medicines or cause an allergic reaction.
You'll need to dig up dandelion roots or buy root for this. If you want to you can ask friends and family if they want to rid of the dandelion buggers, most people still see these amazing medicinal plants as weeds, or just dig them out of your own yard! Just make sure the yard has not been treated in any way, I wouldn't recommend using any from a treated yard. I also hold no responsibilty if you go insane and try to steal dandelion root or hurt yourself in any way... Just saying!
In the process of digging up roots I highly suggest saving and using the greens as well!! It's great as a salad (though a bit bitter and dry, much like kale). You can also make dandelion green Chips (again like kale chips), add to juices, dry and add as a seasoning! Here is an article about the benefits of dandelion greens and roots! It's amazing for skin care too!
Anyway you will want to dig up quiet a few roots, I get about 3-5 pounds of fresh roots for each batch that lasts me almost a year! Seriously, how often do you want to do this? Me? Not every day.
Wash Them Like CRAZY. Scrub them, scour them, wash and rinse and repeat like 500 times. Idk what it is about these fellows but they just don't like clean. Maybe 500 times is a bit of an exaggeration but not by far. You have been warned. This sucks.
Use a coffee grinder OR my ninja. I do love that machine! I do this BEFORE I roast them, as it makes roasting easier and faster. Some people like to grind after... Idk why exactly so I am going to keep explaining my way.
Grind them up, not too finely, not as fine as coffee but the step before, imagine what that would be. If you want to flavor your root, there are AMAZING organic flavors avalialbe to toss that around on those before your next step. I don't measure but I would say a few drops before grinding should be plenty to get it all spread about. Suppose test via scent? Don't like It, add more but beware. You can't take the flavor way after.
Now, spread out on a roasting pan with a silicone liner. DO NOT USE oil to prevent sticking. That would make your 'coffee' so gross. It really doesn't have a problem sticking when I roast on silicone but better safe than a bunch of dandelion root burn to your pan.
I roasted my bunch 1 hour at 120 degrees and the root was a gorgeous caramel brown. For smaller batches, especially your first batch, watch carefully for the caramel color to develop. I am NOT responsible for burnt roots or anything else for that matter!
Let it cool, don't burn yourself, I know it is so hard to resist!! Then transfer to what ever container you would like! I don't flavor mine and just store mine in a mason jar in the fridge. Never has gone bad on me but if you didn't get all the moisture out during the roasting (aka why I personally choose to grind prior to roasting. To make sure it's all roasted evenly) you may have a problem. I would store in the fridge and watch for signs of spoilage.
Seep just like you would tea or you can add it to your coffee pot with filter! Enjoy your morning joe without the caffeine! People call this dandelion tea, when I first made it I was so grossed out! I hear adding nettles also enhances the 'experience' of coffee. Then I thought, that's not tea. It's COFFEE!! *awkward dance of happiness, literally spilt on myself during dance*
This really does taste like coffee and worth the effort! If you don't have the time or want to make this, you can always purchase from amazon! FYI.
The Smart Girl in Pants